7th Year Memorial
This blog is a tribute to a son, a fighter, a friend, an inspiration, a symbol of hope, a scion of unflinching determination, a child of the world who has touched so many of us in so many ways. This is for you Jonathan Byron Gan.
It’s crazy how time flies. This year marks the 6th year since Jon left us. We decided to burn or “Set free” the paper cranes Lavinia so lovingly folded for Jon many years ago. It was bittersweet because It seemed like burning something was like getting rid of it, like you didn’t want it anymore. But I realized it was not like that at all, it was about setting free just like how over the past years we released birds.
On the 26 day of July, Jon would have been 22 years old and this year we had a few special appearances. Juss who have just come home for good from London, and recently passed his Bar. Jeremy back for the first time from Oklahom, also graduated in Engineering coupled with the good news that he will be continuing with his Masters in NYU. And Issac from Vancouver. Later Julian @ Snow Man also came who will leave for Dakota to begin his studies in piloting in his dream uni. Not forgetting Tiny Jon Liew, our newest member of the Liew family who was gifted to Bernie in May. Others who were with us were Poh-Poh, Unc Mike, Aunty Alice, Aunty Juju (Jon's affectionate name for his aunt), Berns, Yee Chai, Uncle Boy, cousins Jams, Dan, Euverne, Chyen and Owen. Our friends Janet and Sonny, Shahnaz and Aishah.
Throughout my journey as a journeyman. A journeyman? What hogwash! Perhaps the word I was searching for is seeker. Another load of hogwash, who you trying to kill softly, first you say journey, then journeyman, now you say search and out came seeker! Can you be more original? Pfffttt...
Death is nothing at all. It does not count. I have only slipped away into the next room.
Nothing has happened. Everything remains exactly as it was. I am I, and you are you, and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still. Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me. Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it.
Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolute and unbroken continuity.
What is this death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just round the corner.
All is well. Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again! ”
We have chosen the dragonfly as the logo for the Foundation because its beauty and symbolism remind us so vividly of Kelly. Like the dragonfly, Kelly was not only beautiful, but she actually sparkled. This sparkle came from the light that was the essence of who she truly was. Kelly exuded this light and love even in the darkest moments of her illness and in doing so was a beacon of hope and inspiration to us all. What's more, when Kelly became ill, she was able to adapt, with the speed, maneuverability and grace of the dragonfly, and to accept the path that life gave her even though it was not at all the life she planned. Kelly also transformed and matured through her illness, and as she did, her truest colors came through even more vibrantly. Finally, in her dying, Kelly helped us to see through the illusion of death. Just as the dragonfly doesn't die when it leaves the world of the pond as a larva and water bug and transforms into a dragonfly, we trust that Kelly has gone through a transformation of her own and lives on, as well. Although she has gone away for a while, she will reunite with us when we, too, have transformed and become the light that we truly are.
Note: The content on this page was created using excerpts from various dragonfly-related websites and books."
Thank you Sean and Tim Orr for the lovely wishes!
Just two weeks ago, we celebrated what would have been Jon's 21st at home with family and close friends. Jon's maternal grandma, Popo cooked up a storm comprising most, if not all of his favourite foods.
The usual family suspects faithfully showed up but making special appearances were two very special 'brothers' of mine, my bro-in-law Mike and his wife Alice and my own brother Johnny with his wife Karen. Also present were my closest of colleagues, friends and partners; Janet, Vincent, Shahnaz & Grace.
My address to the party was short and simple;
Jon's relationship with us as a family and with each of us as family members is a private one and has been over the 4 years where we celebrated his birthday for him without him physically present. This time however, we decided to share the occassion with all because we believe the journey is complete and it is time to live and acknowledge all the special people in our lives who have stood with us with pure unconditional love throughout our period of challenges, coping and grief. To every single one of you who stood with us, we can never ever repay the support and kindness you have given us throughout the entire journey with Jon.
To all of you, we say thank you and we love you.
Today we celebrate Jon's fifth year of leaving us, Mum calls it 5th Continuum.
The event is a memorial to mark the day in remembrance of Jon by releasing birds and white doves signifying the freedom that follows death. In my address to the family this morning;
I look forward to such events only because it is another event to not forget Jon. This ceremony is also for me to take stock of my life in relation to the life he lived and lost and see what have I achieved that will be a legacy to leave behind.
Today, I once again attributed my zest for life, my spirit of adventure and my tireless pursuit of my dreams to my children Jon, Zane and Summer. For inspiring me to live my life to the fullest and pushing me to be the best that I can be in every moment of now.