Best Ever Christmas gift!

I had wanted to edit my earlier post of the shooting star to revise it to say that the sighting, or if you like, the gift sighting of the giant shooting star. I needed to say, to express that the sighting indeed was my best Christmas gift. Ever!

Some people say that those whom we love who have left us can help us better where they are then when they were with us. They can do more even when we don't see them, even when we can't touch them. It's true, unconditional love need not even a physical presence. And it is also true that love is like the wind, you can't see it, but you can feel it.

In my case I saw a shooting start. Not only was it big and its image, now entrenched in my mind and heart, I also felt it's giant presence when it happened.

Thank you Jon for the best gift ever!
Merry Christmas Jon!

I love you.

A Giant Shooting Star Over Sri Hartamas.

I still find it hard to believe what I saw. I saw a most beautiful shooting star. One which I never saw before even though I have seen like 2 or 3 in my entire 48 years of my life. And these were the 'normal' ones when they shoot right above you under a starry black night sky.

We were on the LDP driving to The Curve to continue our office Christmas Party at the Red Box. The view was spectacular with lights coming from the many rooms of high rise condos and houses, silhouettes of podium office blocks plus street lights against a backdrop of dark, dark sky.

And then I saw it! It was indescribable! This one was a big fat one. Fire-y orange-yellow with an obvious red head shooting from right to left. It lasted for a split second! But I saw it with the details of the colours. It was definintely as Star! Shooting right across and above the buildings against the night sky. I mean right above! Not like the usual high up in the sky. This one felt so near, so close-up. Even as I am writing this, I find the whole experience incredulous. Simply awesome. Totally. All I could say to my husband was "Did you see it?" (Yeah how could he when he was driving).

I know deep down that it was meant for me and me alone coz just minutes ago, I mean maybe less than 2 when I was said this to Jon, "Son, it's been a long time since I last wanted proof that you are with me. I no longer need it coz I just know you are."

And then I saw it! I cannot share this beautiful star coz I did not, and could not take pictures of it. It was private viewing.

When I shared this with Summer, she asked if I made a wish. I said no coz all I could think of what was it real, and saying out loud to myself, 'Thank you Jon. I love it! I love you'.

No, you don't need to believe me coz it is not important if you do or not. I am still reeling in my experience of the shooting star.

Jon is great. God is great too!

Christmas is here again..

It's hard not to think about Jon during Christmas. It's his favourite time of the year, what with presents to buy, the christmas tree to be put up and the design of the menu for the grand gathering at Christmas eve dinner, usually hosted by us. Jon will be involved at every stage of the preparation. He would comment, suggests, poke fun and we have serious discussions on what to do, and what not to do. I do miss him.

It has been difficult since Jon left but I try to move on in the best way I know how, taking one day at a time. Making tiny steps each day to a place of where peace and comfort could be found.

This year we will be Uncle Mike's, and this year, like in so many, I will be roasting the turkey with the stuffing with the cakes. Summer have been contributing much, almost stepping into the shoes of Jon, holding me, supporting me in the preparations.

Yes, I should be blessed with the love I am surrounded with. Still it has not been easy. Whatever...

Have a very merry Christmas, and you always be blessed with God's grace and mercy in this perfectly imperfect world.

I love you Jon for always being near. Merry Christmas.